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A promise to myself....
Today, as I turn 35, I find myself standing at the intersection of healing and self-discovery. For far too long, I carried the weight of my childhood trauma and the scars of abandonment etched deep within my soul. The wounds left by my father's absence and at times, my mother's emotional unavailability troubled me for years, shaping my perception of love, trust, and self-worth.
But now, as I stand here, I realize that I am not defined by the pain of my past. I am defined by the strength and resilience that carried me through those dark and lonely nights, the nights when I desperately craved a love that seemed forever out of reach. I've learned that healing is not a linear journey; it's a maze of introspection, growth, and self-compassion.
With each passing year, I've unearthed fragments of my true self, the parts that were buried under layers of self-doubt and fear. I've embraced the scars as a testament to my survival, for they remind me of the battles I fought and won. I've discovered that true healing begins when we confront our pain head-on, when we acknowledge the wounds and give ourselves permission to feel, to grieve, and to release.
In this process of healing, I've come to understand that my father's absence was never a reflection of my worthiness of love. It was his own battle that he couldn't face, a struggle that was beyond my control. And my mother, though emotionally unavailable, was a victim of her own past wounds. I now choose to break the cycle, to nurture the love and compassion within me, for myself and for others.
At 35, I embrace the woman I am becoming—a woman who dares to dream, to love, and to trust again. I release the shackles of abandonment that once bound me and replace them with a profound sense of self-acceptance. I am not broken; I am whole, resilient, and deserving of love.
So at 35, I make a promise to myself: to continue this journey of healing, to embrace vulnerability, and to celebrate the beautiful, imperfect masterpiece that I am. And no matter what obstacles lie ahead, I know that I have the strength within me to rise, to heal, and to thrive.
#unscripted30s